Hello. I hope you’ve all had a lovely week.
I decided to re-edit some of the first few chapters so that I can go through one POV at a time. I have chosen my main protagonist (Andie) to revise first and finally finished my first set of revisions with her this afternoon. I aim to revise my second protagonist (Kaleb) tomorrow. he only has three chapters throughout the novel so should be nice and easy. This leaves me the weekend and next week to revise two more POVs before sending it out for feedback.
I would love to say that revisions have been fun and exciting, but I’ve found them stressful. Because I’m a newbie to writing, with no qualifications, I’m struggling with this process. I’ve enjoyed improving the writing and adding things in that were missed out in first draft, but I’m still not sure if I’m doing it the right way. It’s got me down the last few days. I’ve felt like a failure, like I’m wasting my time, like I’m not good enough. And the truth is – I can’t tell myself I’m not a failure because I’m still in the process of trying, I don’t yet know if I’m wasting my time, and I have no idea whether I’m good enough. One minute I feel positive, the next I feel down. One thing I have told myself, though, is that I’m not going to give up. I WILL revise my novel, the whole way through. I WILL act upon feedback I receive from my editor next month. I WILL try my luck with traditional publishing. If I don’t succeed through the traditional route then I WILL try self-publishing instead. It’s all a bit of a headache. I much prefer the planning and writing the first draft to revising. However, revision has been extremely beneficial at the same time.
Another thing I have struggled with is being an under-writer. I have read that I ideally need 70k words for the novel to have better chances of being accepted, but I’m over 10k words away from this target. Oops! I’ve increased my word count significantly with my first POV character, so I’m hoping the other three POV characters will help me climb closer to the 70k goal. If not, I’m hoping that my editor can give me some pointers. It’s too long to be a novella, so I need to up my game to be in with a chance.
Life at home has been pretty boring and uneventful this week. I’m still dieting but haven’t done any exercise yet. I wasn’t well last night so have sat on my laptop most of today; my daughter has been making drinks and giving me blankets as well as my much loved teddy bear. My daughter is actually my inspiration for writing my novel and she’s my motivation for continuing the journey.
I hope I’ve not been too depressing with my post today, just trying to relate how difficult I’m finding this writing process. Am I alone with this? Or is there anyone else that’s going/been through the same thing? I just want to walk into a bookstore one day to see my book on the shelf!
As ever, thank you for your continued support. I appreciate every second of your time – it’s precious! Have a great weekend and I’ll speak to you all next week.